Wednesday, November 16, 2011
I didn't want to cook dinner tonight. I just wanted to sit outside and watch the clouds blow by overhead and take picture of my girls. They dressed themselves.. with no screaming.. they look great don't they? I love Margot's outfits more and more each day. She must be complete with shoes and hair accessory.. usually several necklaces as well and that tutu.. always that tutu. I have been waiting for them to wear that tutu for over a year. It looks just as cute as I thought it would.
Oh and by the way.. if you are wondering why I haven't mentioned our super awesome trip to New York... that would be because we didn't go. In the end.. after we had packed the girls up in my parents car and they were on their way to a fun filled weekend in High Point.. we looked at each other and knew.. we weren't going anywhere. I had a migraine (I know you are all shocked).. we were both exhausted.. the baby hates riding in the for 2 hours.. how the hell were we going to survive 10 hours + with her screaming.... and then I checked our bank account. When you live in a HUD house and are on Medicaid and WIC and someone waits to cash one of the checks you wrote a month and a half later.. the results can be pretty devastating... (yeah I know I should have been paying closer attention to the account but I wasn't so...) Like $16 left to live on for the next 4 days. That sealed the deal. We moved some emergency $$ over from our savings and Stephen spent the rest of the evening trying to get me to stop crying/beating myself up over our cancelling the trip. We do not need $$ so please don't take this post the wrong way.. I am just being real because.. real is real right? The self imposed guilt was pretty effin crushing. I was convinced I was the reason he had decided we needed to stay home and that meant him missing the concert of a lifetime with his best friend (other than me that is). Stephen swore up and down that he had a bad feeling about going and just didn't feel like it was the right thing to do and so.. we stayed. And then the northeast got hammered with a giant snow storm. Would we have been caught in that storm with a very unhappy baby on board? Perhaps. Perhaps not. Did we spend a weekend together with one baby.. yes we did. Will we try to go to New York again in the near future. Yes. To those of you that we may have disappointed.. did disappoint in some cases.. my apologies. We will get there one of these days, I just know it.