Tuesday, April 21, 2009


Remembering the day our babies arrived...

My heart is breaking. My friend has one beautiful baby boy in her arms and another in the arms of our heavenly Father. In times like these the statements about how "The Lord knows best" or "God is in control" only make me angry. I don't understand. I know that those words are true but my heart aches and I feel confused and saddened by a loss that I feel deep in my chest. I remember the terror I felt each and every time I visited the OB. Terrified that one of my babies would have been taken. I will not pretend to understand what my friend is going through right now. Such joy and such pain in the same moment. How do you pray in such a situation? What do you pray for? 

Romans 8:26 says: "Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words."

In the recent weeks I have found this verse particularly helpful to me in times when I had no idea how to verbalize the pain I felt in my heart. It is comforting to know that the Holy Spirit intercedes for us when words can not be found. Comforting to know that He is at our side in all seasons of life. Still the pain is real. So we, as onlookers in this tragic situation, can only bury our heads in His chest and rejoice that we are human and that such decisions are not ours to make. 


Anonymous said...

Thank you Sarah for putting words to all these feelings and pointing us to the One who can pray when we know not how. It means so much to me as I bury my head in His chest and cry.


Anonymous said...

Love your friend with tenderness and compassion.We cannot understand why some things happen. We are only human with limited wisdom. God does give comfort when we turn to Him. That is my prayer. G-Grandma