Sitting with my nose pressed to the screen in the door to inhale the smell of the rain and wet earth
... as I was saying.. it's official. I am looking at a post-it note stuck to the computer screen that says "C-Section - Rex 8/6 @ 10:25 am (be at hospital by 8:25 am)".... surreal. There you have it, the girls official birthday... that is if they choose to stay put until that date arrives. Please pray that they do. I still feel so far from ready for them to be here. We are meeting with the pediatricians office on June 30th for our prenatal consult and we have our hospital tour on July 1st.. I have all the clothes and gifts sorted awaiting their first washing in baby detergent... awaiting the arrival of the cribs and dresser on July 10th so they can be organized in drawers and baskets..I still need a few things for the layette.. so that means a little more shopping.. have my nursing cover.. have my baby sling.. one of them.. still working on the other since I will need 2 for when they get too big to fit into one (yes, they will actually fit into one sling in the early weeks.. how cute is that going to be ?!?) ... slowly but surely we are getting a schedule solidified for help in the first weeks after their arrival.. I am trying so hard to get all ready so that I can relax and enjoy the last few weeks of this process... but it's not working out so well.
The last few days I have been having a lot of Braxton Hicks, perfectly normal for this time in the pregnancy. I thought I had been having them for awhile now but.. these feel different. I did some more in depth research and these are definitely the real Braxton Hicks thing, the other thing I must have been feeling was just my poor skin and body stretching and tightening.. something I have been feeling for a few months. This new thing scares me a little. Don't worry, I am paying very close attention to their frequency and duration. I have been told to call my doctor if I have more than 6 in an hour. So far that has not happened because every time I feel one I rush to lay down and drink gallons of water.. and subsequently it goes away. Still, feeling my body prepare to deliver these babies is nerve wracking for me. I am so nervous they will come early. So, I feel paralyzed. I am afraid to do too much, but I have so much that I need to get done so that I can relax.. at least it feels like so much to get done.. it's not really that much.. one or two afternoons would knock it right out. I hate being unproductive. I sort of hate having to sleep late after my breakfast and being in my PJs until lunch time. I am much happier when I am getting things accomplished and not feeling like a breakable egg tiptoeing around the house. I wonder if all new moms feel this way towards the end..? Unprepared.. nervous about the baby(s) coming early..? I am so used to feel uncomfortable by now that part doesn't really even bother me. Sigh. All I can do is be super careful and do what is best for these girls which right now is to lay on the couch and drink enormous amounts of H2O. This morning I have had a headache since I woke up so.. there's that too :(
Enough wining.. just please pray that they stay put until 8/6...I really want them to be as fully developed as possible..
In other news.. David stayed with us last night on his way from Tallahassee back to Cleveland. He is headed out to Colorado to seek his fortune out west. I got all teary watching him drive away this morning. We are so excited for and proud of him for taking this adventurous step into his future. Somehow I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that I have no idea when we might see him again .. hopefully at Christmas. Colorado seems so far away. Still, I know most of those tears were hormonal. Can't wait to see where he lands out there.
Alright, it seems I have sat upright long enough so back to the couch I go. I promise I am being careful and paying close attention to these things so no worrying out there ok ? :)
Oliver's favorite afternoon nap spot.. sometimes I think he is part cat.