sunday blues

so i know everyone has this right? sunday blues, thats what my mom calls it. i just say "i don't want too!!" which is short for " i don't want to go back to work tomorrow!!" sundays are tougher lately than they used to be anyway. the last 4 in a row i have been either in bed with a migraine or recovering from spending the day before in bed with one. very uncool. you start to feel kind of cheated out of your weekend really. this kind of thing happens to me more often at the changing of the seasons so i know it will pass but for now its scary to come home on friday knowing that you may or may not get to enjoy the next two days. we are planning to move to Brooklyn in August. i am excited about the prospect but find myself wondering on nights like this. the street we live off of now is pretty busy and can be very noisy most of the time. but once in awhile everything settles down and it can actually feel peaceful here. my computer is situated in the corner of the bedroom and the bedroom is a corner room itself so i can feel the cross breeze through the open windows. there is a sprinkler on outside. i am glad we live on the 3rd floor so i dont worry about people trying to get in. its so hot out tonight. i cant sleep in here but will have to camp out in the living room where the AC is tonight. that ends up being where i spend most nights during the summer. sunday blues are harder when its peaceful outside like it is now. makes me want to stay up to all hours just to feel like the morning might be delayed. but like all good working girls i will get to bed and get some sleep so that i can "hit the ground running" in the morning at 5:30am in time to shower and dress and run catch the train to the city. there is always next sunday. always the hope that next time i will be ready for the week ahead. being unprepared and feeling cheated only makes the blues harder to ignore. one of these days i will get it together. or maybe i will just become a woman of leisure and stop with the rat race altogether! i seem to remember that unemployed sunday nights were not as painful or meloncholy. who am i kidding? being unemployed comes with its own set of issues! namely.. worries about money and where the next rent check will come from. it would just be nice not to have to worry about monday breathing down your neck...i think a perfect remedy to sunday blues would be to work at a barn. then on monday morning, i could just pull on my cut offs and boots, throw my chaps over my shoulder and head to work in a ball cap! get all dirty working hard all day and come home tired and satisfied. this sunday that is my cure. i will go to sleep dreaming of that far off possibility.