Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Reality



In my former life... I spent my lunch breaks in empty partner offices, looking out the windows at the city below...



...I took last minute trips to Maine with my Stephen and ate lobster in the sunshine..



...I watched him climbing to the edge of the ocean..



..I celebrated with best friends after their first real show in the city...



..I sat on my sunny front stoop, waiting to go for a long walk in Green Wood ...

..despite the beauty of these moments.. I had many more migraines in those days... but when I had them I could take my poison pills, lay down for a few hours (or half a day) and be able to move on with life.. and to the next migraine..

.. in my current life.. I sit here in long underwear bottoms, pink slipper socks, Stephen's FSU sweatshirt and my Yankee cap... I have been in these clothes for two days now.. that damn winter storm that is dropping loads of lovely whiteness on the rest of the east coast is just messing with the barometric pressure in my town and my head is a disaster. That coupled with "morning" sickness and the fact that absolutely nothing sounds good to eat... and I feel like a regular mess... the girls are even in their PJs.. again.. day two.. if Mama is wearing hers it is only fair that they wear theirs all day too.. right? Stephen just came home during a free period and brought me some Coke.. maybe the caffeine will do the trick. Sigh. SIGH. I feel disgusting and really hope that I can at least manage a shower in the next few hours. The girls are being absolute angels. Munching on Cheerios and playing with each other nicely and quietly.. and yes.. watching some Kipper and Olivia.. normally I keep any TV viewing to 30 minutes max in a day.. but there has been a bit more of it in the last two days.. Not one word you anti-TV people out there.. I am fragile enough right now without listening to what a horrible Mommy I am too.... Here's hoping the Coke does the trick.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

My sweet little class just stopped during their play time to pray for Ada and Margot's mommy. Sweet prayers. Love to you. That headache hit me Saturday. It was a bad, can't imagine not being able to take something. love you, Mary

J. said...

oh my dear friend! I had no idea this week had been so hard. Praying that you feel better tres bientot!

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Tracy said...

Pull out the videos and turn on the tv..let them watch hours if you want. They will be fine. Of course monitor "what" they watch! I allowed my kids to watch tv off and on, picking and choosing what they could, and guess what, they are not tv addicts and they are just fine.. Hannah would rather read a book than watch tv and Seth would rather be outside!!! Do what it takes to have peace and to keep life easy while you are struggling with the headaches and morning sickness. Remember, it will all pass soon and you will once again be a survivor !! Love you girl! Kisses for all :)

Christa said...

My dear sweet cousin, don't you worry a sec about the TV. I too monitor how much and what they watch, but some days....you just gotta do what you gotta do :) And at 4 and nearly 6 I think my kids are fairly (not completely b/c we move them so much....but that's a different story for a different day) adjusted kids. Praying for your headache to disappear along with the morning (or all day) sickness. When is your first dr appt?

SMS said...

Thanks guys. That makes me feel tons better. I am feeling so much better today... just a little weak and tender. My first appt is next Friday :) I will be a little over 8 weeks.. can't wait!